Unique.Fascinations.Of.My.Life

IM BACK

2010-02-24T11:35:00.000-08:00

ok..im gonna start getting my fingers busy typing again!!!

GREAT NEWS!!

2008-04-10T08:04:00.000-07:00

ok here is the deal i actually went to the lasalle for an interview

for their school intake this august.

it was freaking bad and nerve wrecking just looking at the examiner and explaining

my project and convince them that "i will do my best

oh god just please accept me!"

kind of desprate dont you think?but what the hell!

I GOT IN!!!!!!!

yeah!yeah!yeah!

you heard that right i am going to lasalle!.

im officially now an

LASALLE COLLEGE OF THE ARTS STUDENT!

god thank you very very very much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and to all of my friends iffa and fazling thanks for being there for me

LIKE ALWAYS!

haha thank you both for not giving hope on making me happy!..

friends like you are so hard to come by..

haha..

and boyfriend like Arfian?..

gosh!

PRICELESS!!!

haha..

PS: im putting up the karaoke night pictures up soon =]

busy busy busy

2008-03-12T01:30:00.000-07:00

I have been so busy lately doing my sculture for my interview / exam for lasalle
its about to e finish alrdy..ill put up some pic when i do
NEWS FLASH:
I almost got a job at the flutes of the fort which is like an exclusive australian restaurant
im getting paid for like 1300 as basic salary
but due to my parents they wont let me as it ends at 11pm
im so JOBLESS again
..and as for now..
busy busy busy with my sculturing =]
everyone keep in touch!...missing everybody alrdy..!

Sensual Seduction

2008-03-01T08:47:00.000-08:00

Today was totally fun..

been a long time since me and arfian laugh till we drop when we go out

all just because of the phrase that i keep singing over n over again

"SENSUAL SEDUCTION"

if you might have heard of it,its a song by snoop dogg

and i got addicted to it..haha...so after being so freaking tired from the walking

arfian was exhausted and i was irritating him..by singing it over n over again

he was very irritated but was too damn exhausted to say anything or scold me

haha too bad for him..

hmm when im tired i notice something, i tend t be very annoying and irritating.

anyway..arfian changed hp..he bought the motorola pda phone..

its ok quite nice..but im using that phone!!!(yay touch screen!!)

hehehe..and arfian is using back his N73

and then we sold another spare phone..

got enuf money to last us for a few weeks..hehe..

i think today was a good day...i took alot of pictures for my port folio and such im satisfied.

arfian was my model mind you..lol

ok, i miss him now..haha

everybody lets do the sensual seduction!!

SAVE ME!!!!

2008-02-29T07:45:00.000-08:00

PLEASE SAVE ME FROM MY

MOTHER!!!!!!!

SHE NEED PSYCHIATRIC HELP!!

SCARED!!

2008-02-29T06:00:00.000-08:00

Im not sure if its me or what

but since the person who got out from the detention camp

i am really freaking out!

i dun wanna go out from my house..

i feel scared taking the bus and MRT

Over reacting much???

its too much rite???

i know!!

but im so scared haha!!!

I NEED A JOB!

2008-02-27T20:32:00.001-08:00

If anybody knows any job vacancies!
please tell me!
I so badly need it!

9 months

2008-02-27T07:18:00.000-08:00

Thanks to tus(Fazlin) i actually came up with this entry..when i was reading her blog about how ahmad n her fell inlove it was so sweet and im trying to recall my love story with arfian.

Our love story doesnt really start the way like any other other love story.

You would probably expect that it was love at first sight and all those sorts..well we will get there, soon.

Ok, Arfian is a friend of my X (which was a complete imbecile)

They were so called became friends during theri driving course and just randomly

Arfian asked for a girl's number as he just broke up with his girl a few months before-hand.

Arfian did message me casual messages..like "what you doing?"

hey dont they all ask the same question??

anyway too bad for him, I was still attached to another moronic ex "M"

I was inlove with M you see and no other guy seemed perfect other than him.(dun ask me why! but i seriously regretted being with him now)

continue on the story.

Arfian got fed up with me i guess because he complained that when he messsage me

i either take half a day to reply or one whole day just to answer one question.

so he didnt bother to message me a few weeks after that..

then in a stuck of luck(now i think about it) i broke up with M

and to tell you i got the feeling that it was a good thing for me actually..

im so happy for that!..

anyway after 2 weeks..of having a-total-complete-boy-less-all-lights-on-me-and-having-fun

with my Girlfriend Iffa the queen

one day i recieved an unknown message that says

"Hey! this is Arfian, this is my new number"

and i was like "Ok,Who are you?"

then he tried to make me recall but to no avail..but seriously i really forgot who he was!!

gosh was i really that clueless??

from there on the consistent messages just kept coming baby.!..haha and our converstations

were getting longer and longer and longer each time and it was filled with laughter

nothing but pure fun and laughter and stories that never ends from late at night till early morning.

To tell the truth i was really falling inlove with this guy

i think that its his laughter and the very jovial personality that he has that has caught my every attention

we did send frequent MMS, we couldnt meet yet because he got SOL or something like that

he has to stay in camp for atleast the 7 most amazing days i got to know him.

on the day that we are supposed to meet..this guy doesnt wanna miss a single minute.

he came out from his camp at 7 am and at alrdy 8.00++ he was alrdy at admirality.

i was nervous many things was going through my mind like " will he like me?" "what if he doesnt?"

but what the heck!..here goes nothing..and when i met him..

yup here it comes

LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT BABY!!hahaha..i knew he was a great guy on phone but i didnt know how totally

awesome he was with such a nice smile and just something about him that i really loved la.

we had a great time that day and when he was going home..just when he stepped out of the lift where i send him off he called me..and from there we started talking again...hahaha

from there our never ending fairytale never ended till now.

our relationship may not always be perfect not always happy and sometimes we go through hell

and not shit!..but im pretty impressed by my baby of how strong he is..and how determined he is

in keeping this relationship as strong as he possibly can.

i admire him alot and i never did regret knowing this guy even though i totally ignored him at first

but now 309 days or 7403 hours or 444231 minutes later,

me and arfian

are still holding on very very strongly!..

thank you for everything baby!!!.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!

IM BACK!

2008-02-27T03:12:00.000-08:00

How long was i gone?that it seems like ages since the last time

i blogged.

anyway tell some news about what happen during the past 2 months..

december 24 was ne of the many birthdays that i would never forget

thanks to all the people who splashed condensed milk,egg and curry powder..

that was one hell lot of a smell!haha

i have to of course to thank the three greatest people who made evrything possible

god,my mom and my dad..

haha..

ok the other three would be

firli,fazlin and iffa..gosh you guys were seriously very unpredictable..

haha u really surprised me at the last minute..when u all actually appeared infront of my house

haha..and to all the people who went..thanks for all your presents and

thanks for giving me such a great party!..

i wish we could do it all over again this year!..but anyways

credits to my mom who did all the hard work,waking up in the morning to cook for the party

thanks to my baby boi..who was there all the time during my birthday

he was a good sport even though he has to take care of siti..THANK YOU BABY

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

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GCE 'O' LEVEL Result

it was not good,and i have epected better out from myself

but however there is one word to describe it

very FRUSTRATING

but anyways what is past is past..

everything is over..

now life has to move on..

______________________________________

POSTING RESULTS

I was posted to ITE BISHAN to do HIGHER NITEC in BUISNESS ADMINISTRATION

i dunno why that course..but it is seriously something that i wouldnt

wanna get in..so i tried something else in

ITE SIMEI i appealed for the

HIGHER NITEC in PARAMEDIC ARE EMERGENCY CARE

but i think to myself was it really something that i wanted as a career??

and my answer was plainly NO.

so i have to rethink again of what i want in life..

i did applied for DAE to POLY..and im still waiting though..

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CONVINCING THE PARENTS

i have to do something about my situation there is no way im going to ITE

as my friend put it ITE = Its The End.

so i convinced my parents to send me to lasalle!

it wasnt easy convincing my mom..she is the stubborn one.

she never ever fail to say NO to me for just a day.

but after convincing my mom that there might be no more for me other than lasalle or ITE

she agreed and told me to explain it to my dad..if he is ok with it

then all is well =]

my heart was beating too fast when i explained it to him..i mean it has come to this

and this is the last lap..

i have always dreamed of going to lasalle..

and just like that..

my dad said "Sure,I also heared that lasalle is a good school"

i was jumping for joy..

now im just waiting for an interview to lasalle..

and im really hoping to get IN!!!!!!!!!

Bachelor Of Arts(hons) Degree in Interior Design...ERIN is coming BABEH!!!!

hahaha..

keeping my fingers crossed about the interview..and really working hard for

my port folio..!

wish me all the luck i need

_______________________________________

TO FRIENDS

to all my friends..i know that some of the things that you want to happen did not

go accordingly to what you want it to be but life is full of

ups and downs sometimes.

and when the going gets tough..all you need to do is smile and think positive

i dont believe that there is no problem that cant be solve.

so i wish you all the best of luck! and then always stay happy

and im always here for all of you!

remember this.

"Girls Need 3 Things

1.)love to make them weak

2.)family to make them feel stronger

and

friends who are always there when the first 2 fails."

so sad...

2007-12-22T09:20:00.000-08:00

todayat 1.10 am

my beloved fish.

rested in peace..i feel so sad about it..

do they go to heaven??

i know this sounds crazy but i might give a small

prayer for it..

my BIRTHDAY PARTY!!

2007-12-11T04:50:00.000-08:00

OK LISTEN UP PEOPLE OF ALL AGES!

ALMOST EVERYONE IS INVITED TO MY BIRTDHAY PARTY..

ONCE AGAIN I ELABORATE ALMOST ONLY!

IF YOU WANNA COME PLEASE MSG ME OR CALL ME BEFORE

22 DECEMBER OK?

MY BIRTHDAY IS ON THE 24TH OF DECEMBER(MONDAY)!

100% Confirmed Happiness

2007-12-11T03:29:00.000-08:00

on the 8Th of December me and my baby went to snow city!

after much planning of going to the beach...tent,bbq and all..was unsuccessful after

wave after waves of heavy rain(gosh it sucks!)

we decided to go to snow city!

haha well you guess it rite! it was damn cold inside( like DUH!!!) there

-6.4 degrees C to be exact!
it was fun thought going down the so called "snow" covered slide!

it was so fun!

and i have to tell you a secret..arfian was scared on his first slide down..

he has a thing about heights hahaha..

however as you might know we cant bring camera inside the "snow" filled playground

so instead we took outside the room..

here are some pics with our coat on..hehe

ENJOY!

SUPER BONDING MOMENTS!

Iffa: "aww so sweet!..but so not what i would do!"

Red for Christmas PEOPLE!

Our pants were very wet after an hour sliding down the slide and freezing our way up to the slide

hahaha..we have to go out 3 times within an hour to keep ourselves

WARM!!

This two pictures are me an siti..arfian cute little sister

she is very cute and sweet..

when she is around and I'm talking to arfian on the phone

she like to say

"i want to call!!" hahaha

and when i talk to her she always like to ask me

this question

"watcha doingggg.?"

with a very cute accent in her voice..

she is very cute and totally clever for a 4 year old..

she talks alot too..and that's very cute of her..

she is a very good actress!

another DRAMA QUEEN!

PROM NIGHT!

for prom night i didn't manage to go..because i didn't felt like going

hahaha..instead i spent the whole night out till 4 am with

arfian..we had our fun..

ate at pizza hut and had some

VERY precious quality time together.. =]

a frenz comments " ur guy mcm model!"

hahaha

i fall desperately in love with that smile OK!!!

My Prom Dress and i loved it so so so much!

had to thank Fazli for accompanying me to buy the dress

and for helping me choose..

and seriously the dress doesn't cost more than $80 bucks..

you wouldn't believe it i know..

hahaha

Casual Thoughts

2007-11-27T04:41:00.001-08:00

Im actually working now but my boss is inside his office

so thats why im here blogging.

My teacher's wedding is this thursday im going with arfian

gladly my boss gave me a day off...not sure what

im gonna be doing after that though..

anyways im looking for another job

i found one its at DFS at changi airport pays 10/hr

its not that bad once u think about the money..

i might be calling them tomorrow

now its 8.43 few more minutes till im going home and arfian is alrdy

waiting for me outside my office..i miss him so much

i learned that Iffa finally has a prom dress..

bet she looks gorgeous on it..anyway iffa if ur reading this

on the day of prom itself..you come over my place aite?

then we shall go there together with firli K2?

have i found the prom dress that i want?well

i cant decide on any..

they all look so nice!hahah i just wanna buy them all..

but they cost so much!

hahaha..

ok i think i need to go..till next tyme bye!

Half a Year of Romance

2007-11-25T08:41:00.001-08:00

This will be picture of half a year of being with Muhd Arfian

the most greatest guy that i have ever met..and i mean it

the most greatest.

happy!
happy!

Simpsons and Me

Simpsons and Arfian

hari raye 2007 with arfian

Firli and his fren, Fazlin and Firli

My Angel Sleeping

This Month on the 24th was our 6 months anniversary..

and we celebrated it with fun day!here are the pictures..

It was his First Steamboat

The Food Was Overwhelming

Just look at that smile

The Past 6 months i was with arfian we have gone through shit and cloud nine..

we argue,fight and shout at one another..

we have a temper problem the two of us..but some1 we always get along

we treat each other more than just A couple..

we treat each other more than that..

He is My fren,My Bestest Fren,My Enemy,My Lover,My Sweetheart,My Everything..

(gosh if i explain more further its gonna get pretty mushy!hahaha)

i dun think i can ever ask more from a man than what i have now..

he is the most perfect human being i have met..

he is the only one that can put the words LOVE together and

not breaking its rule..

If there is any weakness of me that you would wanna noe?.

its none other than my Arfian..

I love him!yes i do!

and today the 25th of november was the most memorble thing that ever did happen to me

i finally found the right man great enough to impress my family

and finally i introduce him to my mother..

it was such a relief seeing them getting along...

we need not hide anything from anyone..as everyone knows that i love my one and only.

i love him!i love him!i love him!..

To My Baby,

Syg, i know i had made you cry and had hurt u so many times..i know that i would be the only girl you will willingly give your life for..i know that you will do everything just to make me happy and always keep that smile shining at my face..and i feel the same exact way..

i would have never ask anything from cupid but you..

baby..im so sorry if sometimes i dont think of what i do to you..and sometimes i hurt you so badly..physically and mentally but i will try every single thing to make it up to you..

sorry for being so cranky sometimes..but i know that you are always there to be so patient with me you ar always there to cool me down..and you are the only one who will listen to all my nonsense and that you are the only one who understands me and knows what i tink..i love you so much baby..i really dunno how much more i can express my love to you!..

but seriously syg!..i love you!!

MUACKS!!

HAPPY 6 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY SYG!

"i know how you feel,you know how i feel"

huh? BAGUSS!!

just a foodcourt day out..

2007-11-25T08:23:00.001-08:00

the four of us..after we went to our school's open house..

(the school actually looks much better now..but the canteen is like so small now..)

from the left is Fazlin,Me,Firli and Iffa

Erm...what do you think we were doing at the foodcourt??

Eating?..yes..

Cam Whoring???...erm.. DEFINITELY!

Firli and Me 2 of the most bitchiest in the group..
Fazlin,Firli & Iffa

and of course me and my one an only love of my life..

Halimatus Persey,Candice Erin Lamina,Pheerliciorous Amelicious And Queenie?

(thats all for her name i guess)Iffa MAKE UP A NAME LA!

ok la...my school life wont be the same without them!!!!!!

for 5 years ok maybe only 3 years..they had always been there for me

through my worst and best..

we have gone through ups and downs together..

were at a point we almost break apart..but we always keep strong..

keep strong all the way.. =]

MIA

2007-11-25T08:14:00.000-08:00

Ok so i have practically disappeared for a veyr very very long time haha
and i mean very long time..and i think i need to blog alot of things..

firstly after my o levels i have been busy with work

what may you ask i work as?

i work as a property agent ok assistant only..

haha the company name is

PROPERTY COMPASS

i dun think any of you have heard it before haha..

me neither..well its kinda worth the while working there

cuz the pay is quite good...seriously..

ok i did made some changes to myself..firslty to my hair..

i made got some highlights on my hair and finally finally PERMED my hair up..

and yup i am loving every single moment of having this new hair..

yay!

FUNNY SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-09-14T09:15:00.000-07:00

Moments With My BOFEN!

2007-09-01T08:34:00.000-07:00

This entry is going to be corny and mushy.so if your not ready i suggest

you move on to another entry. ha ha

My day started at 11 am waking up to see

arfian beside me.

i was so happy that he has always been there no matter

what the odds are. he stood up for me.

he is very protective and very caring towards me.

no man has ever made me feel so special before. you just guess how lucky i am feeling

knowing that this guy will hold my hands

and is so proud to tell everyone that.

"that's my Girlfriend."

where else can you get such a boyfriend who is so dedicated

who makes you feel important, who makes you feel like

there is no other girl in this entire fucking world but you only and that

your the only girl in his eyes

and that you are perfect in every ways. i don't know about you all

but i do feel like that.

and i am freaking happy about it. not really happy

but seriously, tremendously overjoyed!.

we have been going on for 3 months+ and we are still going so strong

and the trust that we have build up is unquestionable.

i do not hide anything from him and so does he.

sometimes i question myself.
"Do i wanna marry this guy?"

and i answer myself the very obvious

"yes"

arfian is the type of guy who is hard to find. so I'll be crazy to let him go.

I'm satisfied,more than satisfied.

i cant find another friend,advisor and boyfriend like him.

I'm so freaking in love.

Today we went to his friends wedding, their wedding was not actually

what i picture a perfect wedding

were both parties are really willing and happy to be with each other

and not because the have to for some reason or another.

and i thought to myself while looking into the face of my BOFEN.

"i want the two of us to be happy?we are happy?aren't we?

i love you and you love me,

when we get married it is because we really love each other rite?because

we cant be separated from each other,not even a single minute in our life rite?

you will be true to me and ill be true to you.

we will hold on to one another

and we will keep each other strong no matter what.

we will not let anything break us apart rite?"

and as i look at him again. he smiled at me and just the look at his eyes i knew

exactly what was

the answer to all those question.

Teachers Day!

2007-09-01T08:00:00.000-07:00

The full dress rehearsal that we attended after the students who retook

their 'O' level in the morning,everyone was excited about the rehearsal because

the graduating classes were auditioning for the places to go in to the performance on Friday

we were so over excited. because we got in

and Mr. Tan G.L said "the best performance so far"

that was such a compliment haha considering

the amount of time we put up for just rehearsing the dance steps and the

effort that my classmates actually put up.that was quite shocking

and I'm overwhelmed in how willing they were to be so

willing they was.

so proud of you GUYS!

however,in the morning i was with arfian at the woodlands

library. Nope, not studying hahaha.

me, firli, raudha, Ainninah and syahidah.

me and firli

Firli, fazlin and me

after the performance i met my darling boyfriend who waited for

me for almost 5 hours at the library

getting reprimanded by the librarian not to sleep inside the library

and to stop talking on the phone haha.well my "BOFEN" as what i call it

(in a slang way)

is not very OK-i-listen-to-you-because-you-have-the-authority type of guy

haha. that's why i love him very much!

i pity my bofen cuz after eating at sembawang the kway teow he suffered from having food poisoning and he was going in and out of the toilet. disgusting, i noe. need i have to mention it inside here.

anyway the big day came! and my class was the last performance, THE GRAND FINALE how cool could that be huh?everything went smoothly even though i had butterflies inside my stomach i thought i could never make it through the entire dance. worst still not being able to go out up the stage and perform but i have to say my class was really good when it came to the dikir barat part. everybody was practically laughing.

so proud of my class and we did a great job guys! so now i think its time for us to focus more on studies ok?no more staying back to practice haha

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY

to all the teachers!

I MADE IT THROUGH!

2007-08-18T20:46:00.000-07:00

people, people gather around!

i got something damn important to tell you all

I MADE IT FOR THE AUDITION!

i am singing for the

TEACHER's DAY!

yay!

im singing with fazlin we are singing

"Angel's brought me here" by Guy Sebastian

so be happy for us!

yay!

2007-08-12T04:33:00.000-07:00

Last Friday the morning till lunch time was spent at Sentosa Palawan beach = ] it was fun under the sun on the national day holiday i was

very excited to have this beach outing with none other than

Muhd. Arfian haha

my trusty companion and of course partner in crime!

my cuzin tag along as well,but all she did was just sit at the tree house

and read a book(i know,its boring) but i guess

she had her fair share of fun.

i asked many people to come along,however they all couldnt make it

especially my dearest gal fren IFFA HAZIQAH!

who has to go for POA lesson when it was like HOLIDAY for goodness sakE!

its a HOLIDAY!

haha

anyway i guess it was ok la.she had better things to do i guess.

well even so after the enitre thing,of swimming and swimming and swimming

hahaha.

anyway after which we went to vivo city!!!

and guess what!

arfian bought me a blouse from topshop!

and i love it so so so so much!

thanks so much baby,i know you may not have much but

i really appreciate the things that you do for me

just to make sure that i am always happy

do not worry i am always happy with you

and guess what i am falling inlove over and over again with you

and the feeling is stronger and stronger!

we are going to reach 3 months soon!

and it might be still short for some people and you all may think that many things

can still happen

all i can say is,we will prove you all wrong because i love him

and he loves me back

more than i can only imagine= ]

LATE Queen's BIRTHDAY PICTURES

2007-08-08T06:39:00.000-07:00

the before and after of the Iffa Haziqah Birthday bash!

Its The Queens Birthday!

2007-08-01T06:12:00.000-07:00

IFFA HAZIQAH

is officially 17 years old and has past the

really underage mark of 16

and can finally go out till after 11 without the police having

to ask her to go home or check her IC

she can finally get married

and have a happy family

haha

ok im just over exaggerating

anyway its her 17th birthday!

and i hope she was happy with her birthday surprise we gave

her just now..

yup,i know she loved it alot! hahaha

ill have a very long entry and detailed story with pictures of

what exactly happen on that certain paricular day(which is today)

and i know you all will just love th bloody god damn pictures!

its alot!

and the entry will be fun! till next time ciaoz!

My Sweetest Love Story

2007-07-17T04:22:00.000-07:00

MIA

2007-07-17T04:07:00.000-07:00

i have been MIA for such a long long long long time

so long that i cant even remember when was the last time i blogged

anway many things has really happen.

been so busy at school finish ing up my artefact and im

happy and proud to say that yes i have finished making it!

like Finally!

hahaha

and my folio is just 1 page short and everything would be perfect

all handed in

and erin is DNT free!

i cant wait.

however i still got my maths and sciences to focus on

i really wanna do well for my O level

so that i coluld go to the poly that i so badly dream of going!

you might ask whats up with me and arfian alrdy?

well we are doing way better than great.

we have the casual arguements but it was all settled and

we are happily attached for almost 2 months!

not bad aye?

he is really my soulmate and we clicked so well

i just really hope and pray that this feeling

and relationship will last long.

and that no matter what we are always there for each other.

he had been always there for me

when i needed him,he was so willing to help.

he did not complain at all.

i love him to death!

anyways i will be busy again so very soon

as EL Orals are coming up with prelims just around

the corner.

from where i stand now.

i can smell the scent of O level coming so soon!..

damn got to study study study!

Erin you better buck up! and start doing your work!

you can do it!..

you have to go to temasek poly

for your

architectual and interior design course.

its what you always wanted.

GO FOR IT!

whatever makes you happy,makes me happy

2007-06-07T23:18:00.000-07:00

Guess what people !! Arfian got me a new handphone! nokia 5300!

so lucky rite?

i didnt expect it also but expect the unexpected.!

we went out last saturday and it was fun being with him,

all we did was laugh and more laughter haha.

im feeling so blessed and happy to be with him!

Jack Ass

2007-06-01T20:25:00.000-07:00

After getting off a relationship gone wrong

i am happy to say that i have moved on from that lousy relationship

and now keeping myself happy with my new jack ass boyfriend

Arfian.

Mr. laughing box(find out yourself why i call him that)

i intend to make this relationship last long.

and the feeling wont fade.

i love him

and he loves me.

thats whats important for now.

izzin't it? = ]

time for reflections

2007-06-01T07:51:00.000-07:00

i guess this is the right time for some personal reflections on myself

and on things that happened.

Mid-year exam was not a piece of cake

and the results were very hard to swallow.

it took some time to accept the fact that no matter

how much i studied

my results was not up to my expected standard

after going through paper by paper.

late night studying and

eye bags that never seem to disappear!

i guess i didnt do enough for myself

and i have to try even harder for my prelims.

i dont want come one day when im taking my O level's

that i might be the one crying not because it was tears of joy

its because i have failed in my O level's

and i have failed in my life at that part academically.

However i still have great supportive friends

who never seems to cheer me up when im down..

and Queenie who is always spurring me on to do better and

aim higher when the going gets tough.

she is such a sweet heart = ]

all i need is these plus

my teacher

revsion worksheets

practice

determination

and lastly

perserverance!

Erin will make it!

she will!

RESULTS! RESULTS! BABY!

2007-05-17T05:56:00.000-07:00

there is only one word that could describe my

mid-year exam paper

and the word is

PATHETIC!

im depressed about it, even though i dont show it

but i am hiding it so well.

how am i supposed to tell my mom about thiS?

she will definitely scream and shout at me

she wont be happy!..and im stressed about that.

i just got off from a bad relationship

and now this has to happen!.

how worst could it get?

is there no more

mercy on me?

too many questions asked.
none will be answered if i dont do anything about it.

got to buck up Charace aka Erin!

got to buck up Iffa aka Queenie

got to buck up Fazlin akaHalimatus

got to buck up Firlicious aka bimbo

got to buck up Silva aka belgian chocolate

Mother Tongue Intensive

2007-05-16T06:29:00.000-07:00

MT intensive is really such a bore

most of the time i have no idea what i am doing inside the class

i dun even know what the teacher is talking!

its seriously hopeless i tell you!..haha

so instead of doing nothing at all

i came up with a poem and some drawings

(draw entirely on black & red pen)

without any help from Mr. Pencil..

haha its kind of scary and Gothic like.but i think i love it!.

haha

anyway the poem goes something like this

Psychotic Love

I wished i was the one you want

I hoped to be the one you need

but it was all futile thinking

to my heart you've been hurting

expressions on my face etched

the fake smile I have stitched

You didn't care, You didn't bother

cuz' i was just another.

black and white i have written

proof that you never listen.

I called you my lover

till you started to become a stranger

i begun to see the face behind the mask

it was such a hideous task

every part was painful

but your words were deceitful

You are my favorite mistake

compared to the seconds I break

they never did hurt me

but i guess this is how karma should be

I wish hatred filled my heart

so i could tear you part by part

Don't come to me saying sorry

when everything is done and over with, honey

seal your lips, keep quite

Don't I look pretty with your blood all over me?

-Erin

This is the drawing i drew = ]

Saturday with the Queen

2007-05-13T02:28:00.000-07:00

My saturday was a fun day spent with my bestest galfren Iffa Haziqah

we went out to town and had a blast taking pictures like

nobody's business.haha.

we were both going far a man hunt.and gosh did we find some

hot stud at town.

especially at the new urban male shop!.

haha.hot rite Queen??

Alot of crazy things happened and it was fun

never knew it could be that fun = ]
after what happen between me and Mizan

i guess i got to take my mind away from him first

and have fun on my own.

i guess he really doesnt bother about us anymore.

and he will never have enough time for me

he doesnt really care about how i feel and how much i really

do care for him.

and that im actually hurt inside me.

but i guess our chapter has ended

and if it does open up again

i hope this time he knows how to take our relationship

seriously and that he should not take

advantage of my love for him. cuz i really felt so

UNAPPRECIATED.

however, im happy to have frenz like Queen.

she is really the best person to be with and the only person ill ever need

if i have problems.

I LOVE YOU MY QUEENIE

("Save the Queen" im still gonna buy that shirt iffa!haha.)

anyway enuf talking

here are all the pictures,however they are already edited out!.

have fun browsing = ]

Wishes

2007-05-08T05:55:00.000-07:00

I wish for

a new shirt from top shop.
a V-neck,front buttoned cardigan.
a new pants.
a new handphone (samsung chocolate).
a new wallet from mango.
the "i love my boyfriend" or "my boyfriend is famous" shirt from forver 21
the "you can be my other boyfriend" shirt i saw at causeway point.
a new bag from four skin.
a new "stylish" haircut.
get good grades for my O- level enough to get me to a poly.
to get jake gallenhal's phone number (jarhead,day after tomorrow).
hell lot of top up cards for my M1 sim card.
a fridge(a big fridge) full of HL Milk (the plain one).
a new anna sui secret wish perfume(pink colour) cuz mine is finishing up soon.

and lastly i just want,need and wish for:

him to care more about how i feel.

Kids

2007-05-06T00:29:00.000-07:00

TEACHER : Maria, go to the map and find North America
MARIA : Here it is!
TEACHER : Correct. Now class, who discovered America?
CLASS : Maria!
>>___________________________________________________________>>
TEACHER : Why are you late, Frank?
FRANK : Because of the sign.
TEACHER : What sign?
FRANK : The one that says, "School Ahead, Go Slow.."
>>___________________________________________________________>> TEACHER: John, why are you doing your math multiplication on the floor?
JOHN : You told me to do it without using tables!>>___________________________________________________________>> TEACHER : Glenn, how do you spell "crocodile?"
GLENN : K-R-O-K-O-D-A-I-L"
TEACHER : No, that's wrong
GLENN : Maybe its wrong, but you asked me how I spell it!>>___________________________________________________________>> TEACHER : Donald, what is the chemical formula for water?
DONALD : H I J K L M N O!!
TEACHER : What are you talking about?
DONALD : Yesterday you said it's H to O!>>___________________________________________________________>> TEACHER : Winnie, name one important thing we have today that we didn't have ten years ago.
WINNIE : Me!>>___________________________________________________________>> TEACHER : Goss, why do you always get so dirty?
GOSS : Well, I'm a lot closer to the ground than you are.
>>__________________________________________________________>> TEACHER : Millie, give me a sentence starting with "I."
MILLIE : I is...
TEACHER : No, Millie..... Always say, "I am."
MILLIE : All right... "I am the ninth letter of the alphabet."
>>___________________________________________________________>> TEACHER : Can anybody give an example of COINCIDENCE?
Jack : Sir, my mother and father got married at the same day at the same time.
>>___________________________________________________________>> TEACHER: George Washington not only chopped down his father's cherry tree, but also admitted doing it. Now, Louie, do you know why his father didn't punish him?"
LOUIS : Because George still had the ax in his hand.
>>___________________________________________________________>> TEACHER : Now, Simon, tell me frankly, do you say prayers before eating?SIMON : No sir, I don't have to, my Mom is a good cook.
>>___________________________________________________________>> TEACHER : Clyde, your composition on "My Dog" is exactly the same as your brother's. Did you copy his?
CLYDE : No, teacher, it's the same dog!;
>>__________________________________________________________>> TEACHER : Harold, what do you call a person who keeps on talking when people are no longer interested?
HAROLD : A teacher

Friend Fabulouso

2007-05-04T21:18:00.002-07:00

I havent updated my blog for a long time now

so ill be blogging more about my friends.

it will be a short one.

we have been friends since secondary 2 with iffa n silva

till now.

and with firli n fazlin since sec 3

and we are sticking together always = ]
Silva,Charace,Fazlin,Iffa & Firli

Oh behave!

True Friends = ]

Erin's Friday!

2007-04-27T07:41:00.000-07:00

I woke up at 7.04 today!

and i was almost late for school if i didnt took a cab with

Firli,Divya and Laren.close call!.

I woke up late because SOMEONE! supposed to call me

to wake me up!.cuz he is my personal alarm clock.

and when i say personal.i mean personal

mine only!and i seriously dun wanna share.haha.

so i had my MT paper today.

i almost died of boredom seh doing the pathetic paper!.

i seriously have no clue what i was writing haha.

after the paper Mizan(my personal alarm clock)

fetch me from school and this time he finally didnt get lost.

so we went back home, i got change and we went to town.

we took a cab mind you! cuz your majesty, prince Mizan

is late for work and likes to take the taxi SO much.

so while walking along town. Mizan started

his very usual antics of making me laugh till my jaw hurts.

oh yes!he is very good at it.

when we reached somewhere around somerset.

guess what happen!.

my prince charming bought for me a WATCH!

ahh!!so happy.hehe

it was totally unexpected because actually i was just

browsing through the display and i told

him about how i wanted to buy a new watch so badly
but got to wait for my mommy to buy for me.

but he howerever, decided to buy for me this

Everlast pink colour watch!

i was totally estatic about it and i seriously wanted to jump n scream

out loud.hahaha.but that would really look so wrong.

baby once again.

thank you very very very much for the watch!.

i love you so much b!.

and the most sweetest thing he ever said to me today

was that i was special to him and he really do love me

he said you only fall inlove with one in a million people in this world

and i was that one. then he sang the song

one in a million. hahaha

so we headed down to city hall where honey bunny

have to go off to work and i saw him in his uniform

and he look very smart.

so different from his usual self he look more formal and sleek.
and yup you got it right

he look damn handsome in it.no lies.

i love him so much people.

im really so inlove and no one can stop it from happening.

im very happy with everything now.

so happy.

Realization

2007-04-24T07:01:00.000-07:00

Today i realize something

im missing someone who im not supposed to be missing

i keep thinking about that person.

was he really that special to me?

i have a feeling that my answer is yes

i still remember those times we spent together.

the first time we met.

watching the chingay parade together.

it was all too good.

Now then i realize that maybe the only person

who actually loved me

i have taken him for granted and i might just loose him

forever.

= [

*a**i miss you

but i got to get you out of my system.

Monday....Not so Blue = ]

2007-04-23T08:05:00.000-07:00

Today i was late for school and i have to stand throughout

the entire morning assembly.

how pathetic.

but well the rest of the day was pretty interesting.

we had out science mid year practical.

and it was not easy at all!

i have this feeling that i might fail!

ahh!!.help me!

the rest of the day was sort of a big mess.

teachers didnt show up for lesson.

so we had free period mostly.

but then in the afternoon gosh! the rain was so heavy!.

it was loud and violent.the thunder was so loud

that it seriously sounded like as if your ears was beside an amplifier

that has this 'bang' sound. Damn loud!

it was very heavy that even though all the windows

were closed the rain could still go in.

we have to push our tables all the way to other corner.

and some of us over reacted and started screaming.

but for me i was still extatically telling lingz

"oOo! so exciting" hahaha

after that had P.E at the hall. then blah blah blah.

got home and watched freedom writers.

lingz lend me the cd.

and i have to say its an awesome awesome movie!

worth your while, it is very meaningful and

you could actually cry watching it.

i think thats all for this short entry = ]

I miss my scotchtape!

Fabulous days!

2007-04-22T07:23:00.000-07:00

I will try to summarise everything that happened today
it was just so exciting with the best two people that i love and treasure

being with me for the enitre day.
which is Iffa Haziqah(Queen) and Mizan

as i woke up the sun was bright, the birds were chirping, the sky was blue

and the breeze was cooling..(ok so i over react abit haha)
the real story goes like this:

at around 11.30 the Queen arrived at admirality mrt cuz

we decided to "study" together at my place
so i fetched her the mrt.

yup she looks really sweet n girlie today.
haha.iffa your such a sweetheart = ]i hearts you.

when we got to my place which was still in a huge mess.

we added more mess to it.by putting all our notes n books on the bed.
we tried really really really extra really hard to concentrate n

start studying. but it was just too damn difficult

for two Drama Diva's to concentrate

so the rest of the time was spent on talking,laughing,getting overly excited

over small things that is really not necessary

and yes more laughing.

Wait! we did study abit.we read the QA(its Quantitive Analysis) notes and

we studied about what reaction blah blah blah.

ok that sounds boring so i shouldn't exagerate on that part.

what else we did ar....hmmm...

Oh yeah! CAM WHORING! we did lots of those haha

finally at around 3 plus we decided to go to Yishun CC since Lingz say

she is going there with silva(which in the end went MIA) to study

then when inside the bus Faiz suddenly called me.

but F*ck with him la!i dont give a damn about people who doesnt

treasure anything other than theirselves and blaming others for their own fault.
then after I met Mizan at northpoint the smile came back.

So happy to see him again.

got so excited when finally i saw those familiar smiles of his.

Gosh! So inlove!.haha

anyway we headed down to Yishun CC
See. I am really with the best 2 people i love and treasure.
they are just great

so when we reached the CC.there were couple of familiar faces
from YTSS also.they were playing basketball.
remember i said we go to CC to continue on studying.

but of course we didnt la!haha

after eating the hotdog set i bought cuz i was really hungry alrdy.
Mizan told his overly hilarious Jokes to Iffa n Yiling
and yup they were laughing too much.
it was seriously contagious so i laughed with them haha.

after that Me and Mizan(Scotchtape) finally had our quality time
when we went to causeway point to get his brother a birthday present.

after which we had our Dinner.
just then i finally realized that Scotchtape is really not just a boyfriend
he was begining to show me that he might be my soul mate.
Muacks!

we headed next to the arcade haha..where yup the child
within him took over.

it was funny looking at him stressed up about the game

just too cute la.

at around 7.45 we decided to go back home.

we sat at the voideck were we shared sweet moments

moments that i wish just wont end!

we gave our goodbye kisses.
and i cant wait to meet him again very soon.

i just love my scotchtape
i wont forget what he said to me

"b, it seems like its getting more difficult for us to say good-bye everytime we have to go"

and yes it was very true.it was difficult

however all good things must come to an end.
and i noe this good thing we shared will not end for a long time.

and i hope it stays that way!

i msged iffa after a great day and asked her about mizan

she just said and i quote.

"he really compatible for you.keep him!!.......

honestly Mizan is great, just the guy for you."
that feels good knowing that your best girl friend is actually happy for you.
Iffa thank you so much for all the support.really hearts u.

so im ending this blog entry

and hope you enjoyed reading it. = ]

Feeling the spark even more

2007-04-21T01:28:00.000-07:00

The day started out like any other day

i was in school and was rushing to finish up my DNT folio

it was such a killer!

i was actually hoping that Mr.Ong would

extend the deadline but he didnt so

i have to stay back till I'm done with my Chapter 4

then Mizan called me up..

we were supposed to meet at 2.30

but what to do,so i pushed it to 4 la
haiyo!

then so i managed to finish my work by 3.30

and guess what

while Mizan was looking for my skol

he accidentally took the Wrong bus

haha..so in the end
he ended up taking a cab to my school

and just as i was about to go out from my skol to meet him

he was waiting for me inside the cab alrdy.

you didnt know how shock i was!

but yeah so we took the cab to my place.

where i got changed as fast as i could.

while i was getting ready..putting on my make up

he came up to me & kissed me= ]

and yes i felt the spark!!!..i felt so helplessly in love.

after which we went out around 6

we reached town around 7

then headed to old chang kee
cuz i was seriously hungry!..didnt eat since recess time.

he then bought this funny looking hat

it has hair on top of it! how weird!

then we walk2 at town

around 8.45 we went to the CTE tunnel but got people alrdy

so we headed back to town then

decided to go clark quay

so yeah then we sat down at this huge field

watching people playing with their lighted kites..it looks damn nice= ]

it was even better with him around.

so around 10 we went to esplanade.hand in hand all this while.

there we shared even more sweet moments.

I'm just so in love right?

Crazy in love
so at 11.30 we headed back home.he send me home
and saying goodbye was just too difficult for us.

but it was really late.
feels like i just wanna be with him every single moment.
when he got home

he called me up while i was uploading the pics we took

we talked,however i was too sleepy and tired to continue on.

so we said our good nights and i love you.

"i love you b,dream about me k?" he said

muacks!

he has soccer competition tml!..i wish him the best of luck!hearts him.

here are some of the picks we took

so inlove = ]

2007-04-21T01:11:00.000-07:00

this sounds crazy but yes Erin is finally falling inlove with

a guy worth loving for..

and his name is Muhmd Hamizan

he is such a hottie!

and i am falling inlove with him.

after all the heartaches

heartbraking relationship

worthless "i love you"

broken promises

and

groundless escapades of love

i can so much say that he is yes, the right one for me

he makes me laugh till my jaws hurt

and his hand always find its way to mine

his hugs just gives me the warmth that i never felt

for a long time

and the way he makes me feel,

so special.

2007-04-21T00:57:00.000-07:00

Hello people...

Erin finally has a blog...after much persuasion from my friends namely..Yi Ling(captain potato) and Queen Iffa Haziqah...

I guess this will be another hassle dazzle to my daily routine..

to try and get myself to post something meaningful (hopefully) everyday..haha...

I dont promise..ill just say i will try....

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